Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust.

It sounds so good, so easy in concept. If you were to randomly go up to any Christian and ask them, “Do you trust the Lord?” The answer would immediately be, “Of course! Of course I trust the Lord!” But when it really comes to it, when you’re stuck between a rock and a hard place, or just facing the unknown, this easy answer becomes much more difficult.

I’ve always been the kind of person who wants everything planned out in detail. I love having a plan, knowing what’s going on, feeling in control. I knew I wanted to fall in love, get married, and have children early. I had my whole life mapped out and planned. The big part of my plan did indeed happen. However, I hadn’t planned on the man I fell in love with joining the military, or expect to spend a large part of my life having no control over where we were going, what we were doing, or even knowing when it would happen. However, that is exactly the place where I find myself today. This is the area where I have always had the most trouble with trusting God, and yet now I’m in the place where I have to.

In just a few weeks my family will be leaving North Carolina and heading up to Boston, our next stop in this adventure we call military life. Neither my husband or I have ever stepped foot in Massachusetts, so it is a jump into the unknown. The situation is not unfamiliar though. I left the house I’d lived in from birth till I was 19 in Wyoming to move to Washington D.C. where I didn’t know a soul except my brand new husband. When we left D.C. we headed for a home in North Carolina, which we’d also never visited before. So you’d think by now this would be easy.

I assure you, it’s not!

Every move before this I’ve always worried. Having to drive to a new state, live in a motel room for weeks while you search frantically for a place to live, try to figure out if you’ll be able to handle the change of finances and figure out what you need to be looking for, and then living in an empty apartment for a month while waiting for your things to show up is not fun. However, God has always, always, always provided, despite my lack of trust. When I first found out we were moving to Boston I started to panic. We need to find a place that’s affordable in order to cover the bills for our 2 vehicles and family of soon to be 4. The cost of living is always high in big cities and I have no idea what good neighborhoods are up there or what to look for. Instead of immediately worrying and freaking out though, I decided this time to trust and pray.

Already this has helped so very much. I was able to find a website called Coastie Chics through some girls here and been able to network and talk with several Coastie wives who are in the area right now. I can’t tell you how helpful and sweet they’ve been! This has alleviated many of my fears and questions, and I’m getting so very excited about the move!

It even looks as though we might have found a place to live! While first looking for places online I came across one apartment complex I fell in love with instantly. Scared to commit to anything sight unseen, however, I just stuck it on the list. One of the Coastie wives I’ve met through the site lives in the complex and has been able to tell me everything I could possibly want to know from utility costs to nearby shopping and parks and playgroups. After my hubby and I thought and prayed about it we decided to apply since there are only 2 units available right now. I’ve had nothing but problems with the application the last few days though, and at the moment we’re stuck in limbo, waiting for them to figure out what’s going on.

That old part of me is wanting to freak out. I really want this place and I feel like I will cry if we don’t get it. It would make the whole transition so much more smooth to have a home to move into as soon as we arrive. (Have I mentioned that I’m 7 months pregnant???) But, I have learned that I don’t know the future, where we’re supposed to be, or anything that God knows.

So this time I will trust HIM!